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Of baggage - the emotional kind

And emotional baggage is far, far heavier than the phyiscal kind. I should know - I carry LOADS of it.

Starting today, I am going to do something about it other than write poetry that Sudeep finds funny/insightful. And I am going to do it the AA way - one day at a time, one bag at a time. The first bag to go will be the Ph D in New York bag.

I remember a line in "The Deep end of the ocean", where the father tells his wife (played by Michelle Pfieffer)-"I love you, but you have made a career out of being sad. I want to be happy, and if life gives me an opportunity to be happy, I am going to take it" - or something like that. Obviously cant remember the lines verbatim- it was a lousy book.

Is it only me, or do all of us identify ourselves with someone or the other, in some form or the other? I always identified myself with the (generally considered to be) most boring or the most silly - essentially, the razzie nominations in our circle of acquaintances. I was like N because I was so economical while I was in college. I just did not like spending my dad's money, alright? I was like S because I was so lousy at interacting with people. so on. Why is it I am never able to say, I was so much like Delna because... or So much like Meet because... ?

All this is not to imply that I have low self-esteem. I dont. I know I am dudette. A lazy dudette, but a dudette all the same. Thought a dudette who could do with some debugging and polishing.

posted by Aish @ 11:51 AM